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Today I went to a traditional barbershop to have my hair cut. While I was waiting in line, an elderly gentleman struck up a conversation with me. "Hey, where are you from?" he asked me. "I'm from Justin. I have a house in the city," I answered. "I mean, where are you originally from?" he said, stressing the word "originally." "I am from China originally, and I've lived here since 2019. So where are you from? Where's your hometown? " "My hometown is Lowell, thirty miles away from Justin, but I've been in the area for almost 35 years, ever since I married my wife, Ann. What do you think about this country? It's a great country, huh? "Yeah, a great country and a fantastic country. This morning, my neighbor hung a new banner above his garage door: the banner says: Trump 2033! Please forgive me for being a Trump voter! To my knowledge, the American presidency is limited to two terms. Am I right?...

「限りあれば 吹かねど花は 散るものを 心短き 春の山風」 この歌を現代文に訳すなら、 風が吹かなくとも花は時間が経てば散ってしまうのに、春の山嵐はなぜ短気にも花を散らせてしまうのか

In southeast Memphis - KeShaun Pearson’s hometown, a latest industrial megaproject called “Colossus,” owned by Musk’s artificial-intelligence company xAI, is being used as a training ground for Grok. It can consume as much electricity over the course of a year as 200,000 American homes, and it was powered by natural gas equipped with enormous turbines. Currently, to meet the surging demand of generative AI, energy and tech companies are turning to reliable and stable fossil fuels over solar, wind, or nuclear. Swaths of Data centers are booming across the United States in states like Virginia, Arizona, Louisiana, Tennessee, and Texas. Compared with China, lack of energy is the biggest disadvantage of the United States, hungering for energy is the main driving force to push Constellation to restart their Unit One at Three Mile Island - the site of the worst nuclear disaster in American history. A guarantee to power Microsoft’s data centers over the next two decades enhanced its confi...

Just now, I finished reading today’s must-read article from The New Yorker, titled “He Helped Stop Iran from Getting the Bomb: The Spy Who Told All” by David D. Kirkpatrick. The article was published on March 30, 2026, and it was dated April 6, 2026. Unsurprisingly, David D. Kirkpatrick’s article portrayed a retired CIA agent Chalker who was embroiled in an embarrassing lawsuit with an investor named Elliott Broidy. Elliott Broidy is a major donor to President Donald J. Trump. In a comprehensive 53-page article, David Kirkpatrick explores the reasons behind Chalker’s decision to join the CIA. He delves into the lawsuit claiming that Qutar had paid Chalker to orchestrate Elliott Broidy and several others. Despite the loss of Chalker from the lawsuit, Kirkpatrick highlights his exceptional performance as a case officer in defecting Iranian scientists to the United States from Iran. Kirkpatrick, in a strange turn of events, appeared to be attempting to defend Chalker’s reputation....

Is the orange guy really about making America great again, or just making the rich greater? That has been one of my biggest misconceptions was about Americans. I used to believe that critical pedagogy could help ordinary people understand right from wrong and foster independent thought. However, I was mistaken. Education alone doesn’t guarantee deep thinking — people have to question and reflect for themselves. These days, it feels like society is becoming more like an OrwellianAnimal Farm — a place ruled by the survival of the fittest. Wealth seems to define morality, the poor are dismissed as worthless, victims are denied justice, and the powerful appear free to do whatever they want. Is this really the kind of world we want? The Epstein case has already showed us how blatantly those in power can insult our intelligence. And then there are people who’ll tell you that if you don’t support Trump, you’re somehow a traitor trying to undermine America. In 2023, I often...

Social media platforms are designed to make money, and their core algorithms are built to keep users hooked. So how can we use these apps without becoming part of their profit model? It’s incredibly easy to spend from 30 minutes to one hour scrolling on TikTok, Instagram, Facebook, or YouTube. In today’s world, our time and attention are valuable — a kind of visible wealth — and that’s precisely what these platforms are built to capture. I originally started uploading my spoken English practice videos on TikTok, hoping native speakers would correct my pronunciation. But they didn’t get much attention, probably because the algorithm mainly promotes content that has the potential to go viral. I also tried to find English learning videos on TikTok, but I mostly got entertainment clips. After watching a few, my feed was filled with similar content. The longer I stayed, the more it showed me, making it easy for me to lose track of time.

Today I found a good aggregator website called Goodtimesweb.org. [Good Times: Industrial Policy Under National Security Cover]( https://goodtimesweb.org/ )

Mom, you always told me, "Go to the United States — decent people everywhere, and freedom, like a cup of tea. " Mom, now I'm living in the U.S., Here, freedom, is a cup of tea: two bucks and a fee. ICE on the street corner, waiting for me. Mom, you used to tell me, "Go to the United States — the American dream is waiting, hurry up and hold the key. " Mom, now I'm living in the U.S. — fifty pounds on my knee, fifteen hours on my feet, four hours' sleep like a bee, then home past the corner, where ICE waits for me. Mom, you once told me, "Go to the United States for a key; there, every smile is high glee. " Now, I'm living in the U.S. — people cryin...

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Once, in Texas, I had some small talk with a middle-aged Lyft driver, and he said he didn't have any medical insurance. I was surprised by that fact, as he seemed like a decent white man, so I asked him why. He answered that he was very healthy, so he didn't need to waste his money on medical care. At that time, his answer didn't seem very reasonable to me, because in the U.S. a lot of people go bankrupt because of the medical system, even if they have medical insurance. After Luigi Nicholas Mangione killed Brian Robert Thompson of UnitedHealth Group, I fully realized that the Texas driver was damn right! Even if you have medical insurance, they still have thousands upon thousands of reasons to refuse to pay your medical bills. Then, I looked up how many Texans don't have medical insurance: you wouldn't believe it — quite a lot of Texans have none at all. But guess what? We still have democracy, freedom, Face...

Loneliness has a thousand faces; the loneliness of Americans and that of the Japanese are two typical ones.  Both Americans and the Japanese are highly independent people unwilling to disturb others. However, the loneliness of the Japanese is visible, while that of Americans is invisible. Making friends with the Japanese takes a long while, because the Japanese are introverted and hard to befriend; building a relationship and trust with them is a slow process. You must pay close attention to the details of befriending them.  It is relatively easy to make an American friend, thanks to the easygoing and outgoing character of Americans. Even so, Americans actually have a tiered system for their friends. So in most cases, there is no need to take their pleasantries seriously — mostly they are enthusiastically open-minded and cheerful, and it is quite common for them to forget what they said. Even if you regard something as a commitment,...

Do you really think Epstein's closest friend's presidency is better than Sleepy Joe's?  The orange guy said he wouldn't apologize for the skyrocketing cost of gasoline because Iran might soon have nuclear weapons. Do you actually agree with him?  He himself, his entire family, and his rich friends have already made billions upon billions of dollars — openly, immorally, shamelessly, and corruptly — by exploiting loopholes in the system and colluding with his notorious associates.  Corruption has existed in every administration, but you rarely see a corrupt government in such an unethical and unacceptable state.   He vowed to drain the swamp in Washington, D.C. Yet when you consider the Epstein scandal, he looks like the dirtiest creature the swamp has ever seen.  We should feel happy for poor people who chose such a corrupt, crooked liar, only to be squeezed ruthlessly by him.  ...

Addiction can involve many things, not just drugs, alcohol, pornography and gambling.  Some people become addicted because of their pain, both physical and mental pain; they use drugs or alcohol to get temporary relief.  Some people become addicted out of curiosity, or because it was the popularity at the time.  Some people get addicted due to emptiness; they need something to fill that void.  Some people get addicted because they are lured by addictive products or systems. For instance, social media companies design very addictive mechanisms for people using their platforms; gambling companies design highly addictive mechanisms that keeps people losing money.  Basically, addiction can be very personal, but it can also be a very profitable business. 

今天看到Bear Blog的这篇博客文章，让人不禁感到世界的荒谬。已经21世纪的2026年，国内有些人的思想还停留在两个世纪前。虽然Bear Blog不用翻墙给了她一个与世界交流的平台，但显然她并没有收获。 https://img.remit.ee/i/SzF4Ih8s6uom 首先，即使国外的糟粕再多也不能说明中国跟ccp没有糟粕。你肯定不能把国外的糟粕拿出来证明CCP糟粕的合理性，这是一个典型的逻辑谬误。 其次，国人的记忆要么只有三秒，要么她完全没有任何历史常识， 大跃进导致的饥荒饿死多少人, 她肯定完全不知道，因为她还没有出生， 但不代表这件事没有存在过。 再次， 把中國能取得巨大的發展全部都归於CCP， 这对普通的努力工作的中国人来说公平吗? 这人为啥不只看新闻联播，跟四大官媒，新华网、人民网、央视网、光明网，八大党媒，人民日报、光明日报、中国青年报、经济日报、解放日报、新华日报、解放军报、工人日报，还有澎湃新闻，观察者网这类的呢?  这样她就不用看到网上别人写的不同的意见生闷气了， 如果她去品葱看到品葱那些人写的整天骂中国和CCP的那些东西，她不得彻底气疯了吗?   既然她喜欢统一思想，那她不更应该到真正统一思想的地方去发东西吗？比如中国的各种社媒，小红书、微信公众号，还有微博等等之类的。看的话就只看环球时报、新闻联播、新华网、观察者网之流，那不就完美了吗？ 如果一个人生活在中国，那她就只能对CCP还有中国唱赞歌，不能说任何批评的意见吗？我真的很难想象。这个人的想法真的挺弱智的，我不知道她为什么会这么想。 既然这么爱国的话，那她为什么还要去日本呢？日本搞过南京大屠杀，侵略过中国，她去日本旅游给日本增加GDP。这听起来感觉也不像她这种爱国人士应该做的事啊，真的让人觉得匪夷所思。 还有中国的发展是靠中国广大的勤劳的老百姓创造出来的，她把这些功劳全都归结于CCP，这正常吗？ 再说如果一个人是这个国家的纳税人，难道她就没有权利批评这个国家或执政的政权几句吗？ ...

--- share_link: https://share.note.sx/i9idsrif#c+n+UbBpD8TwiZmdWxIKEA share_updated: 2026-10-05T20:43:09-05:00 ---  Do not go gentle into that good night, Old age should burn and rave at close of day; Rage, rage against the dying of the light. Though wise men at their end know dark is right, Because their words had forked no lightning they Do not go gentle into that good night. Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright. Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay, Rage, rage against the dying of the light. Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight, And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way, Do not go gentle into that good night. Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight Blind eyes c...

--- share_link: https://share.note.sx/f4akhgy7#9PHgQVU4BH7XTLJ73SNBPA share_updated: 2026-10-05T21:07:28-05:00 ---  As I Walked Out One Evening I'll love you, dear, I'll love you Till China and Africa meet, And the river jumps over the mountain And the salmon sing in the street, I'll love you till the ocean Is folded and hung up to dry And the seven stars go squawking Like geese about the sky. The years shall run like rabbits, For in my arms I hold The Flower of the Ages, And the first love of the world.

  Day by day I float my paper boats one by one down the running stream. In big black letters I write my name on them and the name of the village where I live. I hope that someone in some strange land will find them and know who I am. I load my little boats with shiuli flowers from our garden, and hope that these blooms of the dawn will be carried safely to land in the night. I launch my paper boats and look up into the sky and see the little clouds setting their white bulging sails. I know not what playmate of mine in the sky sends them down the air to race with my boats! When night comes I bury my face in my arms and dream that my paper boats float on and on under the midnight stars. The fairies of sleep are sailing in them, and the lading is their baskets full of dreams.

 Funeral Blues Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone, Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone, Silence the pianos and with muffled drum Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come. Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead， Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead. Put crepe bows round the white necks of public doves, Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves. He was my North, my South, my East and West. My working week and my Sunday rest, My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song; I thought that love would last forever; I was wrong. The stars are not wanted now: put out every one; Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun; Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood; For nothing now can ever come to any good...

 Two English Poems by Jorge Luis Borges To Beatriz Webster de Bullrich I. The useless dawn finds me in a deserted streetcorner; I have outlived the night. Nights are proud waves: darkblue topheavy waves laden with all hues of deep spoil, laden with things unlikely and desirable. Nights have a habit of mysterious gifts and refusals, of things half given away, half withheld, of joys with a dark hemisphere. Nights act that way, I tell you. The surge, that night, left me the customary shreds and odd ends: some hated friends to chat with, music for dreams, and the smoking of bitter ashes. The things my hungry heart has no use for. The big wave brought you. Words, any words, your laughter; and you so lazily and incessantl...

--- share_link: https://share.note.sx/a03ih7bm#E1avqhGOaMXxtdR64SNepA share_updated: 2026-10-05T02:54:08-05:00 ---   今天从一个电报频道看到这个纪念为乌克兰牺牲的华人志愿兵的新闻的时候，不知道为何一开始没有细读，只是稍后再读。这里面有几个人我在之前的新闻已经读到过，心里总是有一种很复杂的感觉。 华人志愿兵去支援乌克兰很重要一点是认同自由民主的理念，并且非常反感共产党的统治。 这不是我感到困惑的，实际上令我感到困惑的是，大陆一边严厉批判台湾独立，强调一个中国，而对俄罗斯肢解乌克兰却暗渡陈仓的支持，这不是政策上的精神分裂吗? 在网络上，国内通常也分为俄友跟乌友，把血淋淋的战争弄成了饭圈化，把中国对俄乌战争的战略模糊”（Strategic Ambiguity）彻底变成了网络闹剧。 其实，这是一件不言自明的事情，乌克兰侵略俄罗斯了吗? 没有。乌克兰侵占俄罗斯领土了吗? 也没有。乌克兰作为独立国家，有权决定加入北约或者欧盟吗? 有。苏联曾支持古巴，但除了猪湾登陆，美国出动正规军直接入侵古巴了吗? 并没有。 如果乌克兰真的加入北约，北约可以像美国在韩国部署萨德一样，部署同样的东西在乌克兰，俄罗斯肯定有相当强烈的生存焦虑，这跟苏联在古巴做的没有本质区别。但需要质问的是，即使如此但这真的能给俄罗斯充足的理由直接入侵乌克兰吗? 显然不能。 俄罗斯也同样需要扪心自问，为何地缘内的国家越来越离心离德? 总不可能每个都侵略一遍吧。 如果，从道义上来说，这可以被确定为不正义战争。那么，强烈支持俄罗斯对乌军事行动的中国网友的合理理由到底有哪些? 我想大概率是我上述的生存焦虑那些，可能还会有削弱俄罗斯，作为对抗美国的屏障，等等。让人啼笑皆非的是，即使讨...

The Hollow Men The eyes are not here There are no eyes here In this valley of dying stars In this hollow valley This broken jaw of our lost kingdoms In this last of meeting places We grope together And avoid speech Gathered on this beach of the tumid river Sightless, unless The eyes reappear As the perpetual starMultifoliate rose Of death's twilight kingdomThe hope only Of empty men.

There is a silence where hath been no sound, There is a silence where no sound may be, In the cold grave—under the deep deep sea.

当人生已经跌到谷底的时候，刘裕是如何绝处逢生的? 接受最不堪的现实，戒掉恶习。不以物喜，不以己悲，不自艾自怜。 隐忍与克制，谋定而后动。忍辱负重，在低谷中不自暴自弃。 在动荡中捕捉机遇，在机会来临时不吝压上所有筹码。敢于下场搏命，悍不畏死。 功成后不忘初心，依然严于律己，保持清醒。 如果你现在已经一无所有，那為什麼還要擔心失去呢?  何不像刘裕一样重振旗鼓，放手一搏? 即使失敗又能怎麼樣呢? 反正你也没有什么可失去的了。 人生一世，草木一春， 不管怎麼樣， 所有人都會死， 為什麼要提前在死前认命呢?

去中心化幻觉 去中心化只是一个幻觉，到最后要么服务器owners变成一个个小的部落独裁者，像mastodon那些instances的管理员一样; 要么最后汇总变成一个大的网络国度的独裁者，像bluesky的拥有者一样。   去中心化意味着力量分散，最后反而更容易被垄断各个击破，然后彻底击败，有时候我甚至怀疑去中心化本身是不是垄断公司设计出来的。 也许去中心化是理想主义者们为了对抗垄断及追求言论自由，可实际上最后却变成另一种牢笼以及垄断者的利润来源。这怎么看都很像古代的农民起义，本意是为了追求平等，反抗暴政，可到最后起义军往往变成另一个暴政，甚至变得比上一个暴政更坏。 有两件事让人会觉得非常奇怪，一是新闻看到Jack Dorsey支持Bluesky跟马克扎克伯格支持ActivityPub协议; 二是OpenAI，Authropic，X跟Google等都投入闭源，反对中国AI公司的开源。这难道不让人觉得这帮人精神分裂吗? 一方面支持去中心化跟开源，一方面又严禁AI开源，重新转回闭源。 开源跟闭源都不重要，这些人会把将要绞死他们的绞绳卖给你，重要的是如何榨取最后一滴利润。 不过，他们支持去中心化的显性理由普通人也能分析: 1 改善自己的名声; 2 剥离一部分内容让去中心化部落主去承担内容审核跟法律合规风险; 3 训练他们自己的闭源AI模型。 去中心化在香港抗议也曾实践过，"Be Water"是当时非常有名的口号，去中心化避免了港府擒贼先擒王的风险，但同时也因为缺乏明确的最终目标和统一的策略跟行动方案，导致最后彻底失败。 香港抗议最初是理想主义者为了对抗专权而自发形成的政治协议，但马上被利用，变成对抗ccp的先锋棋子，最后因为失去利用价值，迅速被抛弃。像极了垄断公司支持去中心化协议的逻辑，理想主义者还是沦为垄断者的数据奶牛跟承担攻击的屏障。 只要人们最后还是选择为了便利牺牲隐私自由跟话语权，去中心化就是一场彻头彻尾的幻觉。 协议可以去中心化，但人性跟权力不能。   "Erst kommt das Fressen, dann kommt die Moral."  "First feed the face, and then talk right and wrong."  – Die Dreigroschenoper ...

意志力实际上是可消耗精神产品: 意志坚强的人如果总是纵容自己，便会迅速意志薄弱; 意志薄弱的人如果坚定信念，厚积薄发，也会变得逐渐意志坚定。 意志力实际是一把双刃剑，过于迷信意志力的唯意志论导致走火入魔，从而走向彻底的灭亡; 短暂的连续的成功有时候并不是意志的胜利，而是疯狂的开始。在极度的困境中，意志力在某种程度上可以是一剂强心针，但其并非可持续。 缺乏意志力，会导致萎靡不振，难以振作。人在屡战屡败后会产生巨大的失望，从而以对成瘾性物质或精神产品的严重依赖来转移注意力以求摆脱暂时的压力，焦虑与未来不可知的恐惧。 意志力的可消耗性，使人必须懂得，对意志的合理使用才会达到应有的效果，过度迷信唯意志论会产生对意志力无所不能的幻觉，在意志力消耗殆尽后，对意志力的缺乏又会导致意志消沉，逐渐变得颓废不堪，产生药物或精神的某种寄托及依赖。 意志力的强大与薄弱都具有相对性，并非一成不变，时刻磨砺意志并维持一种理性的平衡是维持稳定性的重要条件。